I finished school this past December and since then I've been just taking it easy. The reason I stopped posting on my blog is that in 2012, I became sick with an illness that impaired my judgement, reasoning skills and had social anxiety. I found out that I had a chemical imbalance that changed my reality. Through the help of many doctors, I am now able to control my illness and live a somewhat balanced lifestyle. At the time of my illness, I became very depressed to the point of having suicidal tendencies. I lost all hope and became very apathetic towards life. I took a break from school in 2013 and I fell in total despair. Even though I was attending a Christian college and knew that God existed, I felt so disconnected and out of touch with reality. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't just "pray it away". It was during this time that I met Mikey, my current boyfriend, who helped me through the whole process and most of all he was there for me the whole entire time. Knowing that he was there helped me tremendously and I was able to go back to school and finish strong. My relationship with God had changed, I doubted him and felt a loss in trust. I'm beginning from square one, taking baby steps in trusting him again.
Things are looking up for me, I'm doing better and I hope I can keep up the feelings and emotions that I have. It's a daily struggle and I need strength that only God can provide. I still want to remember the things that happened these past few years, I know that because of my experience, I can one day encourage someone else who is going through the same things. This leads me to maybe continue on to get my Master's degree in Social Work, hopefully making a difference in someone's life. We'll see!
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