trains of thoughts crashing....
It's hard to stay focus when you go through a month of bliss; friendships that deepen into levels that I can't explain but knowing all awhile that what is needed is just that: a friendship in times of hurt, one to be there for you, to hear you out, to really follow through to what is being said. In this season of life, that is my self imposed prescription: friends. Friends who do not judge, friends to have no selfish intentions, friends of no romantic interests, pure and simple friends. I failed. I FAILED in this. I became friends with a special someone, we connected on a deep level but I failed because my actions were not correlating to my words. I failed because I slowly opened up my heart to show the pain I have been in, and became more physical with my friend than appropriate. See, I enjoyed the warm of his embrace, the comfort of his hugs, the security that he desprately wanted to offer me. I became aware of how I've lead him o...